NaMmYwAmMyKiN’s Blog

Why hello there……I haven’t blogging for long long time (jeez i need to blog more ). Anyway, I had such a fun time with my friends today. We played a fun fun game of Mao (……Zedong lol). Man…… I was like the worst player out of the whole group (Saurav’s rule was hella fucked up DX), but watever…….I had fun in the end . Man I didn’t go to senior prom and now I have mixed feelings. I felt so regretful and stupid that I’ve waited so fucking long just to say yes to a girl who asked me to go to prom with her. But……….at the same time I was okay (a little bit glad :\) not going to prom mainly because I “didn’t feel like going to prom”. My friends told me it was fun and “you should’ve went to prom…it was hella big and epic and awsome..and blah blah blah”………..watever I can live without it……..I think. I bet a handful of other students didn’t went to prom like me….I think. Some said it was fun, others said it was “alright”. But the main point is………I think I have no regrets at all (yes even the incident with Linda) I did not go to the senior prom……………………………………..I think.

I’m feeling really really really dark now. Somehow I got the urge see someone have his (or her…eh maybe not) throat slit out and enjoy watching him writhe in utter pain!!! I would to see all my mortal enemies (do i even have mortal enemies?) have their organs rip out of their bodies and f***ing strangle them to DEATH with their own intestines!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OKAY………….I feel a lot better now . Sigh, change…………..that’s what I really need right now. It kills me in the inside to watch my mom and dad everyday with their hopes crushed. I never saw my dad smile or talk with me like father and son. It fucking kills me to watch everybody looking down on me and treat me like SHIT (no…..even lower than shit). But how? HOW?!?!? How could I change what I am now? The damage was already done a long time ago. It was ALL my fault and there’s no hope, no chance of redemption. Maybe this is my life….THIS IS MY FUCKING LIFE.

OMG GUESS WAT…….I got admitted into San Jose State University!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! (and it’s Teresa’s Birthday today!!!!! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TERESA!!!!!!!!!!!)  So aside from college stuff, the first day of Assassin (it’s a game my friends made up) was crazy! Some of the players  are dead already and I was the first person to be assassinated (cry). Vicky got the first blood from me and got 2 points (one for killing me and one for early assassination). I was distracted by Martin cuz he ask for the time and I went in my backpack to look for my cell phone, and then, all of a sudden I felt a sharp poke on my back. I turned around and saw Vicky smiling. OMG, I was freaking shocked and pissed at the same time. O well at least I get to be one of Saurav’s dead soldier who does his bidding and kill the ones who got penalized. So right after school, Martin and Eddie wrestled each other (ehhh well its not really wresting….more of like gay wrestling) and we all watched and laughed. After that we all went to the parking lot to go home. Martin tried walk blindfolded and he almost fell into a steep hill, but luckily, Saurav saved him. LOL, for a moment I thought it was the end for Martin. Oki that will be all, folks!!!!!!!!

Nemo

I don’t know where to start. Maybe I should start witht the fact that my life is a failure and that there’s no hope for me. 3 days ago, my dad and I had a fight. Unlike any other supportive dads, he called stupid and a failure and also said, “college is only smart people, not for stupid retarded peoples like you…..and why do they even accept the likes of you guys…….you can only join the marines and if you go into war and die…..then good…..I say good bye to you”. He was really serious and he’s not kidding just to scare me……he’s actually telling the truth. I really want to fight back, but he’s my dad…….what else could I do? He’s right and I’m wrong. I am a failure and pathetic loser who can’t really do any shit at all. I can’t even do anything right.  Even my friends have higher standards than me and succeed in life, while I rot like f*ckng failure. I was really hurt and I just want to end my misery and suffering. Maybe the key to end all of this is to end me. Yea..maybe it will be better for all of my family and friends. They will forget about me and never have to  put up with this retarded loser. Sigh……..I don’t want to blog now………..not at this time…………bye……

Lets start off with me and my friends going to Starbucks after school (very rainy day today). We bought our drinks and played cards (game of 13). About an hour later, Saurav and I drove back to school (Martin, Bao, and Kevin was in Saurav’s car of course….so lonely in my car). Now the real deal happens. So Saurav drove in front of me and I was following him. Ok so at the stoplight, it was about to go red and Saurav barely made it through. Unfortunately for me, I didn’t make it and ran through a red stoplight (stupid stupid stupid me). I was very very lucky that there no cops around the street. Saurav was thinking I couldn’t have make it through and stopped, but at the next stoplight, he looked back and said, “SON OF A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!” (yea that’s f*cking right, I made it through…not very smart *sob*). After the incident, I was so tense and nervous that I can’t stop shaking myself. At the next stoplight, I turn onto the next street (of course it was green -_-) and I so happen to turn to quickly that I got myself in a big swerve of doom!!!!!!!! I was spinning like about 180 degrees and I did all I could to keep the car in control. I was like F*CK, F*CK, F*CK, F*CK, F*CK, F*CK, F*CK, SH*T, SH*T, SH*T, SH*T, SH*T, SH*T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then, I ended up near the curb (so close to crash into the curb, but I made it) in the opposite direction of the road. I was distorted and paralyzed after the ride of my life, and I almost piss in my pants, too (so F*CKING scary *cry*). After the delightful exprience, I U-Turn (and a car honked at me…SCREW U!!!!!!!!!! DON’T U SEE THAT I ALMOST F*CKING CRASH!!!!!) and sped quickly through the street and passed through Saurav (yea he pulled over to see what happened). I made it back to school and stopped in the parking lot. I was shaking so hard and thinking ,”Sh*t, did the cop see me??!!” I was lucky son of a bitch that no cop was in bound and I did not crash into anything. Saurav drove back to school parking lot, and my friends went over to my car to check on me. We were all relieved that there was no crash. We hang out in parking lot for a little bit (Martin and Saurav made fun of me about the accident of course) and went home. In the end, no damage was done and I was f*cking relieved (but still shaking *sob*). So yea…….that’s my story and if you guys out there thinking “Nam, you’re a f*cking retard for doing that”, then yes I admit that I was indeed a retard for doing this and I learned my lesson……..and hopefully I won’t make the same mistake again. I will learn to drive like a human (just like Saurav said) and not like a maniac. Well the end…………….Nammy out.

Sigh……..well its another one of those same old day where I go to school, get tormented by my friends (especially Saurav and Martin), go home, cry and beat myself until I stop crying with my dad’s crowbar *JK JK*, and do my homework. Aside from all those boring, crappy things I do in my everyday life, I heard interesting and weird mythical stories (the Loki stories were freakin werid O.o) from my AP Physics teacher, Mr. Lubbs. Oh yea I almost forgot…….. 2 days ago, I went to Togos and Starbucks with my friends. At first we decided to just hang out at Starbucks and eat there, but Marcus suggested that we all go to Brigadoon park (which I haven’t been there in a long time since I was a kid). I drove to the park with Eddie and Marcus, and we got there before Martin and the rest of the guys (I can’t believe I beat Martin!!!! XD…stupid Martin and his sense of direction JK ). So after Martin finally got there (finally!!!! sigh), all of us,except me, ate our lunch (of course I leech off of Eddie and Martin..thx guys!!!^_^). Then the real fun begins and we slide down on concrete slides that is like freakin 20 feet high (we used cardboards for more speed, yea!!!…..risking our safety for fun!!!: D). During the process of having fun fun time, Marcus and I went down the slide together. I landed down first and leave out my hand on the position where Marcus is about step on……yea ouch. It freakin hurt like hell and I got all bruises and cuts on my hand *cry*. Everybody got tired and rested for a little bit, but I kept going on the slides (so addicting!). So being the retard that I am, I decided to have everybody push me down the slide (stupid me…). I went down so fast that I hit down on the ground and flip 4 times. Unfortunately, during the process of me flipping around, I broke my glasses (zomg…..my dad is gonna litterly kill me *sob*). After the tragic moment (nooooo my glasses….my precious!!), my friends and I went to the swings. We all compete who would jump the farthest (I think Martin or Marcus won……). After that we all went home, but Saurav decided to wrestle with Martin, and we all joined in (except for Bao….weak JK) and did a dog pile on Martin. We all pinned down Martin and tickled him to death (LOL, so funny looking at Martin clenching on the grass and screaming like a girl XD). After that, we felt sorry for him (maybe except for me lol JK) and carried him to his car (damn, it took like 5 people…fatass). Finally, we all head for home. Well that’s all I have for today heh heh. Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

+Nam+

I have been thinking and I have made my decision……………………and here I am making my blog. The reason why I am making this blog is that I need something to ease my mind off and take that emoness away from me, but if you want to read and take your pleasure off of my pain and suffering, then be my guest. I think that this may kind of cure me by writing all my thoughts and feelings down on this blog and forget all the bad stuff and be happy :]. Well anyways……..INTRODUCTION!!!!!!!! Yea..lets see here. I am the person who is called Nam(aka Nemo(Nam+Emo=Nemo!), NammyWammyKins, Naminator,  Backwards Man, Retard). As of now, I’m a 17 year old full Viet male. I’m 5 feet and 9 inches tall and weigh about 130 pounds (omg i lost couple of lbs!). I love to play video games and hang out with my “friends”. I have some mortal enemies I would like to see them getting tortured and killed (maybe shoot them in the elbows and kneecaps *sry martin for stealing ur quote but I had to, so agn sry ^_^* and then rip their arms and legs off and leave them in the middle of the road full of maniac, careless drivers), and I’m not gonna say who and no its not Thanh or Chris or Saurav. Most of my friends see me as a low-self esteem loser, and they’re probably right *sob*. So in the end, they all make fun of me by making retard and girl jokes about me, but its all fun and games, right? Some may be wondering why do I not stand up for myself and say ”well f*ck you and I don’t need your motherf*cking shit”….well, I don’t really know. Maybe something happened in the past that made me this way or I lost all hope and confidence in myself, but who cares……at least they get to enjoy it right? I hate most of the seafood out there except for fresh salmon sushi (mhmmmmm). I love sushi and pho (Chris can say it fluently and it sounds funny too XD). I like to play football (suck at it, but still…) and futbol (aka soccer). I like to read manga and watch anime (Sola!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sad..why do she have to die *cry*) once in awhile . Some of my friends are having suspicions that I watch porn or hentai, and I always tell them that I’m clean. Yet they still don’t believe me and calls me pervert (which I am a little heh, heh cuz of my big mouth) or closet pervert. Well that’s all I have for today……..that kinda actually feels pretty good blogging. I’m kinda calm and a little bit happy, but still there’s still a lot of emo in me *sob*. Well until next time…So long, farewell, I hope all of you m*therf*ckers burn in hell!!! JK : D

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